Quitting Smoking Blog

I haven’t smoked since August 31st at 2pm. It is now September 1st at 5 am. Exactly 15 hours since I last smoked.

This is one of the difficult times because if you mess up quitting now, it doesn’t matter that much since you only have a half day invested.

The problem is that it’s so rare that you actually go this long without smoking.
I’ve been smoking since I was about 15 years old; I just turned 30 in July. I’m really starting to feel it lately.

I detailed my last few quit attempts on my regular blog, Misanthropy Today:

Quitting Smoking #1

Quitting Smoking #2

Quitting Smoking #3

I’ve gotten tired of boring my readers with my endless attempts to quit smoking. I decided that maybe starting a dedicated blog to it might be more effective for me.

Amazing that if I would’ve quit on entry #1 I would have been quit for over a year now..

Before I used Zyban. This time I haven’t used anything yet but assume that I will be using Zyban as things get worse. You’re supposed to start Zyban weeks before you quit and although that sorta worked for me once it made me so crazy and also took away a lot of the pain that I think is necessary to make you not want to have to quit again. Zyban made it relatively painless (as far as cravings go, plenty of unpleasant side effects) and as an addict you associate quitting with being easy, which you shouldn’t.

We’ll see.

So here’s how it’s gone so far:

I fell asleep very early last night because of my lack of smoking. I woke up in the middle of the night and went and got some thai food. I laid in bed and felt the aches and pains of not smoking, but even then I felt like I had more strength when I went to sit up and so forth.

For some reason cigs really weigh me down.

Probably because i’m 6 foot 3 and around 230lbs. I guess my lungs get tired, which makes me feel tired, which makes me lazy, which makes me gain weight (I was 195-200lbs for most of my 20’s), which is just an endless cycle.

Most people think that smoking helps you lose weight, and maybe it does for some people, just not me— it does the opposite.

So there are a few main reasons why I’m quitting smoking:

• To Lose Weight
• To Get My Energy Back
• To Not Feel Lazy
• To Be More Active
• To Get Rid Of A General Acceptance Of Dirtiness/Uncleanliness that cigarettes cause and sometimes overflow into other areas of your life
• To Do Something Different
• A Challenge
• I’m 30!
• I have no idea. This is going to be hard. I have a camping trip coming up on Friday