I kept a nalgene bottle of cold water with a green tea bag in it for whenever I got thirsty. I probably refilled it 3 or 4 times.

I’m sweating a lot.

Usually I would be taking Zyban but this time I decided not to because it makes me a little crazy and also I think that i’m more likely to relapse with it because it makes quitting a lot easier. That said, if I had to be at work every day I don’t think i’d be able to do it without Zyban.

1. The Law of Addiction – “Administration of a drug to an addict will cause re-establishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance at the old level of use or greater.” Yes, just one powerful puff of nicotine and all your hard work is down the drain. Adherence to just one rule guarantees success to all … Never Take Another Puff.

Nicotine rewired your brain, growing millions of nicotinic receptors in eleven different regions. Although your mind’s nicotine induced dopamine/adrenaline intoxication is an alert high, your chemical dependency is every bit as real and permanent as alcoholism. Treating a true addiction as though it were some nasty little habit is a recipe for relapse. There is no such thing as just one puff. Nicotine dependency recovery truly is an all or nothing proposition.

2. Measuring Victory – Forget about quitting “forever.” Like attempting the seemingly impossible task of eating an entire elephant, it’s the biggest psychological bite imaginable. Instead, work hard at adopting a realistic and do-able victory yardstick that celebrates freedom an hour, challenge and day at a time. If you insist on seeing success only in terms of quitting forever then on which day will you celebrate?

3. Emotional Phases – Chemical dependency upon smoking nicotine is one of the most intense, repetitive and dependable relationships you’ve likely ever known. It has infected almost every aspect of your life and thinking. Be prepared to experience a normal sense of emotional loss when quitting that gradually transports you through six very different phases: (1) denial, (2) anger, (3) bargaining, (4) depression, (5) acceptance, and (6) complacency. This emotional journey is normal and a necessary part of recovery.

4. Do Not Skip Meals – Each puff of nicotine was your spoon releasing stored fats and sugars into your bloodstream. It allowed you to skip meals without experiencing wild blood-sugar swing symptoms such as an inability to concentrate or hunger related anxieties. Don’t add needless symptoms to withdrawal but instead learn to spread your normal daily calorie intake out more evenly over the entire day. Don’t eat more food but less food more often.

Drink plenty of acidic fruit juice the first three days. Cranberry is excellent and a bottle will cost you about the same as a pack of cigarettes. It will help to both accelerate the up to 72 hours needed to remove the alkaloid nicotine from your body and help stabilize blood sugars. Take care beyond three days as juices can be rather fattening.

5. Avoid All Crutches – A crutch is any form of quitting reliance that you lean upon so heavily in supporting recovery that if quickly removed would likely result in relapse (a person, product, service or activity). If you feel the need to lean upon a quitting buddy be sure that your buddy is either a sturdy long-time ex-smoker or a never-smoker.

With the exception of using extreme care with alcohol during early withdrawal, you do not need to give up any activity when quitting except for using nicotine. Likewise, successful long-term quitting is not dependent upon you engaging in any new activity either. Contrary to the junkie-thinking you’ve likely fed your mind, everything you did as a smoker you’ll soon adjust to doing as well or better as an ex-smoker.

6. Crave Coping Techniques – You have conditioned your mind to expect the arrival of nicotine when encountering various times, places, activities, people, events or emotions. The first time you encounter each crave trigger you should expect a short yet possibly powerful anxiety episode lasting up to three minutes.

Don’t fear or hide from your triggers but confront and extinguish each of them. You’ll find that most are re-conditioned by a single encounter during which the subconscious mind does not receive the expected result – nicotine. Welcome and embrace every episode as each reflects a beautiful moment of subconscious healing, and the reclaiming of another aspect of your life.

One crave coping technique is to practice slow deep breathing while clearing your mind of all needless chatter by focusing on your favorite person, place or thing. Another is to say your ABCs while associating each letter with your favorite food, person or place. For example, “A” is for grandma’s hot apple pie, and “B” is for …” It’s doubtful you’ll ever reach the challenging letter “Q.”

7. Cessation Time Distortion – A recent study found that nicotine cessation causes significant time distortion. Although no subconsciously triggered crave episode will last longer than three minutes, to a quitter the minutes can feel like hours. Keep a clock handy to maintain honest perspective.

8. Caffeine/Nicotine Interaction – Amazingly, nicotine somehow doubles the rate by which the body depletes caffeine. Yes, your blood-serum caffeine level will double if no caffeine intake reduction is made when quitting. Although not a problem for most light to moderate caffeine users, consider cutting caffeine intake by roughly half if troubled by anxieties or experiencing difficulty relaxing or sleeping.

9. The Smoking Dream – Be prepared for an extremely vivid smoking dream as tobacco odors released by horizontal healing lungs are swept up bronchial tubes by rapidly healing cilia and come in contact with a vastly enhanced sense of smell. See it as the wonderful sign of healing it reflects and nothing more.

10. Relapse – Remember that there are only two good reasons to take a puff once you quit. You decide you want to go back to your old level of consumption until smoking cripples and then kills you, or you decide you really enjoy withdrawal and you want to make it last forever. As long as neither of these options appeals to you the solution is as simple as … no nicotine just one day at a time, Never Take Another Puff!

This is one of the difficult times because if you mess up quitting now, it doesn’t matter that much since you only have a half day invested.

The problem is that it’s so rare that you actually go this long without smoking.
I’ve been smoking since I was about 15 years old; I just turned 30 in July. I’m really starting to feel it lately.

I detailed my last few quit attempts on my regular blog, Misanthropy Today:

Quitting Smoking #1

Quitting Smoking #2

Quitting Smoking #3

I’ve gotten tired of boring my readers with my endless attempts to quit smoking. I decided that maybe starting a dedicated blog to it might be more effective for me.

Amazing that if I would’ve quit on entry #1 I would have been quit for over a year now..

Before I used Zyban. This time I haven’t used anything yet but assume that I will be using Zyban as things get worse. You’re supposed to start Zyban weeks before you quit and although that sorta worked for me once it made me so crazy and also took away a lot of the pain that I think is necessary to make you not want to have to quit again. Zyban made it relatively painless (as far as cravings go, plenty of unpleasant side effects) and as an addict you associate quitting with being easy, which you shouldn’t.

We’ll see.

So here’s how it’s gone so far:

I fell asleep very early last night because of my lack of smoking. I woke up in the middle of the night and went and got some thai food. I laid in bed and felt the aches and pains of not smoking, but even then I felt like I had more strength when I went to sit up and so forth.

For some reason cigs really weigh me down.

Probably because i’m 6 foot 3 and around 230lbs. I guess my lungs get tired, which makes me feel tired, which makes me lazy, which makes me gain weight (I was 195-200lbs for most of my 20’s), which is just an endless cycle.

Most people think that smoking helps you lose weight, and maybe it does for some people, just not me— it does the opposite.

So there are a few main reasons why I’m quitting smoking:

• To Lose Weight
• To Get My Energy Back
• To Not Feel Lazy
• To Be More Active
• To Get Rid Of A General Acceptance Of Dirtiness/Uncleanliness that cigarettes cause and sometimes overflow into other areas of your life
• To Do Something Different
• A Challenge
• I’m 30!
• I have no idea. This is going to be hard. I have a camping trip coming up on Friday